Please don’t be so hard on yourself. Please try to love yourself more. Please… You need to realize that no one will stand up for you. You need to do it by yourself. So, stop being so hard and try to love yourself more. Once you forgive yourself for what ever happened, you will breath easier. You need yourself to back up for your mistakes. You should be more independent. Stop being depend on someone. Believe your own self that you can do a lot better by yourself. Even if you’re not doing it right, at least you can do it by yourself. You will learn what’s right and what’s wrong. You will be the best version of you. All you need to do just keep believe on yourself. Stop hit yourself hard more than what it deserve. You need to be happy with or without anyone else.